I think it is only fair that you get to know me a little bit better to understand how I think and how my brain works in order to put my writings into perspective and to draw your own conclusions. This is why I, once about every ten days, answer one of the questions from the New York Times question series: 36 Questions – How to fall in love.
If you want to start at the very beginning, you can find question 1 here.
And if you just missed the last answer to question 34, you can find it here.
Question #35 reads as follows:
“Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?”
Oh boy, what a downer…
I wrote a lot about my family in the past and how important especially my parents and my sister are to me. Each of their death would be not only disturbing, but at the moment probably devastating. I know I feel better, but I also know that their death has the potential to catapult me back into dark places. But who wouldn’t be devastated by the death of a loved one?
It is really difficult to pick one, because I feel that if I say one name it will mean that the other people are not as equally important to me. But that is not true and probably unfair. A son always has a special relationship with his mom and I am no exception. However, I think that most disturbing would be the death of my sister. She is still young, married recently, has a wonderful son, and they are building a house. She worked hard for all of that. And although I know it is not related to me, her death would make me question a lot. Even thinking about it makes me sad.
I would lose one of my best friends and someone I deeply admire (but I repeat myself =) ). She is not perfect. Nobody is, but if I care for other people the way she does and work as hard towards my goals as she does, I will die as a happy man with a lot of close friends surrounding me.
I really hope the last question is a more positive one again =).
Take care, Stephan