Reflection: 8 months of writing a daily blog

8 months or 2/3 or 244 days are behind me in my pursuit to write a daily blog. It is a good time to pause and reflect again.

The last months, and especially the last two weeks were difficult in terms of writing. There were several days when I asked myself if I should continue writing. There are several reasons for it. I also think they are connected.

I have the feeling that I start to repeat myself again and that what I write about is not really something new. Either for me or for you as a reader. I want to write about things that I have experiences, have thought about intensively, or have a connection with so that it is easy for me to tap into my emotions and feelings while writing about it. If this is not the case any longer, I feel bad. I don’t want to preach. Sure, there are definitely topics where I write about what could be done in a specific situation, but I always make sure to speak about my own struggles doing it, as well.

The next reason is the number of blogs I still want to write until the year is over. Another 121 entries. That is a big number when thinking about. I am demanding towards myself when it comes to the articles. I know that not all of them are equally good, but I always want to make you think or learn something new or understand something. I am not sure, if I still have another 121 articles in me. I mean, sure life is the best teacher and there will be situations that generate an insight, but I cannot count on it to have one almost every day going forward.

The last reason is the valley I go through for the last two weeks. I still struggle a lot with forgetting, letting go of, and accepting the end of the relationship and when I think about it I feel like a fraud and inauthentic. With it comes a void. A void I don’t yet know how to fill. Sure, I could write about this, but then I give the topic more space and attention than is good for me. I am still afraid that this will last longer and even more afraid that I don’t want to change it.

However, this does not mean that I will stop writing this blog. No, I want to fight my way through this valley. I still enjoy writing. When I have a topic, writing the text is very easy and I am definitely in that flow-state. Let’s see what the next month will bring and please be patient with me.

 

Stephan

3 Comments Add yours

  1. CherishingFLo says:

    I understand. One thing I can say is that sometimes you can repeat topics with a different perspective and it’s like writing something completely new. It’s hard coming up wit new content and the fact that you were able to write so much consistently the way you have is better than a lot of others. I think ya as writers are our own biggest critics. I’m sure you’ll get out of this valley soon 🙂

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    1. Thank you and I agree with the biggest critics part =)

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  2. Don’t be too hard on yourself, take your time and enjoy the writing process 🙂

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