Trust in life itself. That is easier said than done. Of course, it is easy, when everything is working in your favor. It is more difficult, when things don’t look good or nothing seems to work.
I, also, have to remind myself and be reminded to simply trust life. And, I have to remind myself quite often these days. But that is ok. When I look back on my life, I know that everything that happened presented me with a lesson to learn. And even though I don’t understand this lesson yet, it doesn’t mean that there is none. I am convinced, it will present itself when the time is right. What I do however, is to reflect upon my situation and my behavior and why I did what I did.
But maybe there is also a time to momentarily stop trying to figure out everything. Maybe, I reached that point. What good does it, when I try to hold on to something that cannot be controlled, or at least at the moment, fully understood, while life is seeming to pass me by? It is not pleasant to think about that. But, I believe that I need to be honest with myself. Kind and understanding, but also honest.
And what does it mean in general, that I hold so tightly to one specific thing? As with almost everything, there are two sides to that coin. On the one side, it clearly points me towards something I lack in my life. On the other side, it tells me something about my values, ideals and what is important to me. And here we have one of its lessons already.
Even though it hurts right now, I am convinced that time will proof to be a good teacher once again. And even, if I don’t understand, and even when there are days during which I struggle, I will remind myself – to never forget to trust in life.